I’ve been married for almost 5 months now, and it seems like the one thing that is on everyone’s minds is BABIES, that is everyone except me.
Two of my close friends already have one little bundle of joy, proudly sharing some of the cutest pictures I have ever seen of their little ones. I like oo-ing and ahh-ing over the pictures, but the thought of me having my own right now is just not in the cards.
Another one of my friends has been married for a couple of years, and she was recently bitten by what I call the “baby bug.” She gets so excited with the thought of being a mom, and I’m excited for her. But one thing’s for sure, I’m not ready for it.
It’s weird making decisions now for when I am ready to have kids though. For example, my husband and I just recently bought bikes to so we can bike to work, and one of the deciding factors for my bike was whether or not we would be able to put a kid on the back one day. We’re also systematically buying up all of our “toys” (ie: big screen TV, surround sound, etc.) now before the kids come. We’ve talked about names too once the time comes, and we sometimes joke around that we’re gonna be the type of parents who embarrass our kids because of all the quirky things we do.
Sometimes I feel bad that my so-called maternal instinct hasn’t kicked in yet. It’s kind of the same feeling I got when all of my friends started getting married. As a non-married onlooker, I sometimes felt lonely (and little jealous) that all of my friends had reached the marriage stage, and I will still waiting for my then boyfriend to pop the question.
Now, like I said, it feels like all of my friends are in that stage where they are wanting babies. I don’t want them right now, and instead of feeling jealous, I sometimes wonder if there’s something out of whack with my maternal instinct.
So I wonder, how long will it take before I’m bitten by the “baby bug?”
(On a side note, I just want to mention that my lack of wanting babies right now has nothing to do with the fact that I’m having difficulty controlling, I mean, training my two welsh corgi puppies.)